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August 20th, 2007

So, umm yeah. This is absolutely correct. Drug dealers on speed dial, private parties, cribs, hangin with Hef, shopping insane, partying like, well, a rockstar. I want it. Sadly I have no talent but that hasn't stopped countless bands i hear everyday on the radio huh? So I give you Nickelback's "Rockstar"


I'm through with standin' in line
to clubs I'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
and I'm never gonna win
this life hasn't turned out
quite the way I want it to be
(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house
on an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
for ten plus me
--(Yea, So what you need)--

I need a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet
--(Been there done that)--

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July 30th, 2007

(i'll explain it later... maybe... but for right now just read, d/l and enjoy!)

One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
Didn't know I had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah

July 14th, 2007

This is SO self explanatory I won't bother with an intro

yeah You know don't nothin' come easy, you gotta try real, real hard
I tried hard, but I guess I gotta try harder.

[Chorus]
I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery,
Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets,
It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me,
And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,


But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow)
But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)

[verse 1]

First, let me explain that I'm just a black man,
And I come from the darkside, so I'm havin a hard time stayin on track man,
My mind be racin', and I don't even know what I'm chasin yet
Been in and out of relationships, I'm startin to see that it's me where the complications at

But I'm layin back, prayin' that, you get that piece of mind of me
I thought I was right, but really I'm wrong, but again I was too blind to see,
I was in the fast lane chasin my dream,
And then it seemed when the fame and cash came, they just got me,
Goin crazyyyy, (lately, lately) lately I been so faded trying to erase it,
But I just can't cause the drama just grows greater,
And I been in so many collisions by puttin shit off till later.


[Chorus]
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July 12th, 2007

If you think I want the life you choose to live
I don't think I want the love you've got to give
If you think my goals could be so trivial and small
Then, I don't think you know me at all

Born between the covers of your fashion books
You think you can make it, girl, on just your looks
But you could never bring me up
Between us stands a wall
No, I don't think you know me at all

Believing in the promise painted in your smile
I've chased what I was running from, girl, all my life
I've known you a hundred times in memories I recall, but
I don't think you know me at all
I don't think you know me at all.

I'm listening to my Queen station at Pandora.com & it is fricking amazing! I don't recall the last station I bookmarked so many songs on...
My Life: The Soundtrack

Opening credits: mamas don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys- willie nelson
Waking up: i hate everything- george strait
Average day: here i go again- whitesnake
First date: didn't mean to turn you on- robert palmer
Falling in love: my next broken heart- brooks n dunn
Love scene: wonderwoman- trey songz
Fight scene: fighter- christina aguilera
Breaking up: you won't be mine- mb20 or in terms of love- shedaisy
Getting back together: just can't stay away- en vogue
Secret love: secret love- luther vandross
Life's okay: peaceful easy feeling- eagles
Mental breakdown: brain damage- pink floyd or unwell- mb20
Driving: bye bye- jo dee messina
Learning a lesson: no regrets- robbie williams
Deep thought: southern cross- csn
Flashback: jaded- aerosmith
Partying: big shot- billy joel or sleep when i'm dead- bon jovi
Happy dance: into the groove- madonna or dancing queen- abba
Regretting: burning bridges- garth brooks or back to good- mb20
Long night alone: outside- staind
Death scene: alone again naturally- gilbert o'sullivan
Closing credits: i tried- bone thugs n harmony
My heart hurts right now. Tonight I sat in the car and shed tears for the things i've seen, done and experienced this summer. For Amp, the cousin I barely got to know who was shot to death the day I left for denver. For the slow death I sold and the money I miss. For the 31 indictments M got served before I left. For Shaun who loved me in his own way and tried his best to keep me safe only to end up in jail. For DT who was "fine" before we met, but was stripped naked and pistol whipped because he met me. For my parents' anniversary today. For the family I never had. For the love I felt for Charles that he couldn't return. For pains I can't even speak on that are now so deeply ingrained in my soul that i haven't the slightest idea how to loose them. If you look at R. Ross's myspace, I left him a comment tonight thanking him for this song. It was the theme of my summer. It got me through nights that had no end. Music is truly a blessing.

Rick Ross, track 19- PrayerCollapse )

July 10th, 2007

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normally i'd say  something about what the song means to me, why i picked it today or how it makes me feel, but this one is so self explanatory it's unreal.

Help!-  The Beatles

Help, I need somebody,
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone, help.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me.
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April 4th, 2007

Miss You, Yo.....

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No Regrets-Robbie WilliamsCollapse )

February 2nd, 2007

Looks like I'm'a do everything myself,
Maybe I could use some help,
But hell, if you want somethin' done right
You got to do it yourself.
Maybe life is up and down, (up)
My life's been what to now?
I crawled up your butt somehow
And that's when things got turned around.
You used be alive, now you feel pathetic.
But now I get it,
What's done is done,
Just leave it alone, and don't regret.
Sometimes- somethings- turn in-to dumb things.
And that's when you put your foot down.

[chorus start]
Why did I have to go and meet somebody like you?
Why do you have to go and hurt somebody like me?
How could you do somebody like that,
You know that I'm never coming back.
[chorus end]

Looks like I'm going to do everything myself. (everything myself)
Maybe I could use some help,
But hell, if you want somethin' done right
You just do it yourself. (got it?)
Maybe life is up and down.
But my life's been what to now? (got it?)
I crawled up your butt somehow. (got it?)
And that's when shit got turn around. (got it?)
You used be alive, now yo so pathetic.
But now I get it,
What's done is done,
I know, you just LEAVE IT ALONE, and don't regret.
Sometimes- Somethings- turn into dumb things.
And that's when you put your foot down. (your foot down)

[chorus start]
Why did I have to go and meet somebody like you?
Why do you have to go and hurt somebody like me?
How could you do somebody like that,
You know that I'm never coming back.
Why did I have to go and meet somebody like you?
Why do you have to go and hurt somebody like me?
How could you do somebody like that,
You know that I'm never coming back.
[chorus end]

Depending on you is done. (is done)
Giving to you is done.
No more reasons, no sleeping, no living,
It's all just more giving to you and I'm done. (and I'm done)
Depending on you is done. (is done)
Giving to you is done. (is done)
No more reasons, no sleeping, no living,
It's all just more giving to you and I'm done. (and I'm done)
The hiding from you IS DONE. (is done)
The lying from you is done.
No more reasons, no sleeping, no living,
It's all just what giving to you and I'm done. (and I'm done)

[chorus start]
Why did I have to go and meet somebody like you?
Why do you have to go and hurt somebody like me?
How could you do somebody like that,
You know that I'm never coming back.
Why did I have to go and meet somebody like you?
Why do you have to go and hurt somebody like me?
How could you do somebody like that,
You know that I'm never coming back.
[chorus end]

But why?
WHY?
(you've been some (???))
WHY?
WHY?
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

Why?
why?

lb- boiler

January 24th, 2007

Blue October Hate Me

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months thats one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

January 17th, 2007

here's hoping

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Something Beautiful- Robbie Williams

You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful-that day
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical-these days

You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign - loving kind
Every night you admit defeat
And cry yourself blind


If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You WON'T be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way


The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo - each day
And the past that cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful
You just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul, no, no, no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone

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December 27th, 2006

Sarah M.- Angel

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees


In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

December 18th, 2006

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Last night, cnfsdyoie and I discussed at length what variety of man we want to develop in a cloning lab. But today I heard this song for the first time, and I think this would be much, much better.

Dresden Dolls -- Coin-Operated BoyCollapse )

You can download the song here.

And since I'm fairly sure I haven't made a Robbie Williams-free post in at least two weeks, I'll throw in that I would want my model to look just like him. If he could sing "She's the One" at appropriate moments, so much the better.

December 16th, 2006

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I'm still on my "All Robbie, All the Time" kick. At least he has an extensive discography.

Ego A Go GoCollapse )

And if that wasn't bitter enough for you, here comes the one Robbie song that actually kinda scares me. Pure hatred, this one.

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Now this one is more cheery. Kinda. It's been stuck in my head for a week, cause it's very appropriate.

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December 7th, 2006

Duncan Sheik- barely breathing... story another day

I know what you’re doing,
I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born
There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide
You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why

I say good-bye...

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay


Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame Will it ever change?


‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I’m thinking it over anyway...


I’ve come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?

I rise above
Or sink below
With every time
You come and go
Please don’t come and go

(CHORUS)

December 4th, 2006

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This is for cnfsdyoie, who I think will get a kick out of it. Although I don't take any of the drugs referred to anymore, I still found this to be excellent mood music for a trip to the migraine doctor. Plus, I think this is Dr. House's theme song.

The Good Doctor by Robbie WilliamsCollapse )

November 18th, 2006

I just need to remind myself of some things... need to remember the message of this song. shit happens. life goes on. change is inevitable. every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end & all that jazz (wow 2 song refs in one sentence!!)

Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...

You sucked me in and played my mind
Just like a toy you would crank and wind
Baby, I would give til you wore it out
You left me lying in a pool of doubt
If youre still thinkin youre the daddy mac
You shouldve known better but you didnt and I cant go back

Oooh, life goes on, and its only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye cuz you cant go back
Oooh, its a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where Im at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I cant go back


Leanne Rimes- life goes on- the restCollapse )

September 25th, 2006

I lost all faith in my god, in his religion too
I told the angels they could sing their songs to someone new
I lost all trust in my friends
I watched my heart turn to stone
I thought that I was left to walk this wicked world alone

Tonight I'll dust myself off
Tonight I'll suck my gut in
I'll face the night and I'll pretend
I got something to believe in

And I had lost touch with reason
I watched life criticize the truth
Been waiting for a miracle
I know you have too

Though I know I wont win
I'll take this one on the chin
We'll raise a toast and I'll pretend
I got something to believe in

If I dont believe in jesus, how can I believe the pope
If I dont believe in heroin, how can I believe in dope
If theres nothing but survival, how can I believe in sin
In a world that gives you nothing
We need something to believe in

If I dont believe in jesus, how can I believe the pope
If I dont believe in heroin, how can I believe in dope
If theres nothing but survival, how can I believe in sin
In a world that gives you nothing
I need something to believe in

September 11th, 2006

Hybrid- If I Survive

Breathing shallow,
I'm slipping away
Hanging in the gallows,
I'm starting to pray

How careful it was planned,
to do away with me
So kill me if you can,
but words wont make me bleed

So what if I survive,
and live to tell the truth
Imagine my suprise,
to find me living and so very much alive

I'll find a new life and hide if I survive
But I swear you're going down if I survive

I'll find a new life and hide, if I survive
I'll find my own place in time, if I survive
I'll learn to forget the crime, if I survive
But I swear your going down if I survive

If I survive I'll tell on you

September 4th, 2006

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songs like these are why i know all rap/hip hop these days doesn't suck.. and it's older, but it's definitely a Pac-esque song.. deep rap. good rap. there's a lot of religion in that genre too ... shit when you have a fucked up life you've gotta find something to believe in or shit is going to get ugly even quicker. hmm maybe i'll do that.. random activity.. "religious" rap cd... religious is being used loosely.. mostly i mean songs that are about faith, talking with God, figuring out his will for a life... blah blah etc. anyway, nice song below.

Petey here
I wanna tell im dead broke and im bout to go crazy
half a tank of gas, two cigarettes
scrapping up change in the ashtray
then a voice said its only a test of my faith
it was only
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